Relapses

i need somebody. i'm lonely. i have some friends, i have term papers to write, i have an internship, i now have the band, i have volleyball, i have my room mates, i go out, i try not to think too much.
but i also have an ex i still get upset about (and can't forget the negative things and how he treated me sometimes), i'm afraid of the future because time's running, i wake up and go to sleep with an awful feeling inside, i'm restless, and i think too much.
i need somebody. not because i really need somebody but because i want to forget. i need somebody because that makes it easier.