Yawn

"und wieviel ist dir geblieben!
und wie schön ist noch die welt!
und, mein herz, was dir gefällt,
alles, alles darfst du lieben!"
(Heine)

oh boy the last two weeks have been pretty different from my usual semester break. i'm tired when i get home and glad when i have time to just relax. but in general i'm ok with my life right now. i get up early every morning to go to the school. i bike to the next bigger station and then go by train. today i was at a seminar in ka the whole day. the last two weekends we had tournaments and on sunday i went to a band rehearsal, which again lasted 3 or 4 hours. it looks like the one saxophonist will finally quit or something like that, which means that i get to play all the gigs. and i have to show up at the rehearsals. playing with the band is so much fun. and the tournaments are so much fun. besides that i have the apartment just for myself, because my roommates are gone and not gonna be back until in 2 weeks or so.
my good friend left for england today. i said goodbye yesterday.
otherwise there are no romantic stories, not even sex stories to tell, no love, no glory, no hero in her sky... but i accept my horrible fate with dignity and wait for the things to come.

Six years already

Cheers!

sitting here with my flatmate in front of the tv, drinking wine.. already a little tipsy...
when i went to run some errands tonight i met my lovely ex with his lovely girlfriend, walking arm in arm. to an italian restaurant by the way, where i used to go with him sometimes. yeah that was great, i must say... everything came back to me... shit...
i saw him at practice on wednesday too. next weekend we have a tournament and he's gonna play with us in one team..... recently he does not even react to a request or impersonal messages from me (he also doesn't really get in touch with a friend of mine anymore, who is, well used to be, a mutual friend). it's just annoying. kindergarden...
ok this has to have an end...
i know, i admit, it was a big mistake (big big mistake) to stay in contact with him, either because he was at the same place like i or because i somehow kept in touch with him myself through sms or whatever. i guess i was out of my mind...
i made a decision, finally, that i don't wanna see him anymore.. i'm gonna talk to him at this tournament and tell him at least not to come to practice anymore. it just won't work.
at the seminar in ka i found some cool guys, who kid around the whole time and i have much fun with them. we had a totally ridiculous lecturer (a dr. dr.) on thursday and we were sitting there in our seminar and died laughing... was a cool day.
ok wine is gone.. chatting with my ex ex lover.... buenas noches...

Back to the roots

yesterday was a looong day.. i had to get up at 5.15 in the morning and go by train to the first of the seminars that go along with my internship. The seminars are in ka, where i used to live and study for over 4 years. so, the whole thing went from 8.15 till 15.45. actually it was ok and interesting, but i was really beat-up when i came home.
in our lunch break we went to the pub/café downstairs. i met one of my former colleagues from the movie theater where i used to work. it was cool to meet him and talk to him for a while, especially since we used to get along well and i like him.
it was good to be in ka again. gosh, it's just definitely better with pubs where you can have a cheap meal and beer. it's bigger and less boring than here. i don't know, i just like the city and the people.
i'm relaxed today... i'm gonna have a coffee later with a friend from the band. then v. practice tonight. the next seminar is tomorrow. hopefully i can sleep some more this time.
i love ka...
why again did i leave?