Kopfsalat

classes started again today... not mine though, since i have mondays and fridays off as far as i can tell by now. besides all the little things i have to think of and prepare for my classes, i've got some more important issues on my mind, too. a job, for example, and the big band i was asked to play in, and going abroad for working or studying next year (where? what? how long? why?). the applications and interviews for that means a lot of work, organization and running around. for me that's a lot to think about and the truth is that these things always become problems for me instead of challenges (as it should be). i could have taken care of some of this stuff in my holidays... yes... and i could do with a efficient plan now. a car would be nice, too.

Oh shit he's gone...

my flatmate just left.. his first night at his new place in his new bed. i feel empty and left alone. i talked with him for a while in the kitchen and it reminded me of the beginning when i moved in here with the two guys and that we were a pretty good team...
he'll be back tomorrow to paint the room here, ya, and he'll probably be back to get some stuff that's left, i know, and i'm gonna see him sometime again, but... he'll be gone and with him his friends, who have become my friends, too, to a certain degree. it's stupid, i know, i can't help it...

Wisdoms

every once in a while you discover some wordly wisdoms or just some simple rules for yourself. that's what i found out recently.
1. when you have to do stuff, you should think about if you need something and what you need to do this stuff before just doing it
2. worrying about things in the future which aren't an issue yet is a totally stupid thing to do
3. most things in life are totally dependent on your own mind. good or bad or anything between doesn't happen outside; it's all in your head! (this is actually something i've found out long ago and find out again and again)
4. somebody said to me lately that you have a connection with the people you've had sex with for your whole life. that's true, i guess
5. rain sucks